Bridges can be scary. If they look weak, you don't know if you want to cross them or not. It's like something from Indiana Jones where you are thousands of feet above water and in order to get from one cliff to the other, you have to cross a very wimpy looking bridge. You think, well it's safer to be on this side then to risk that. At least, this is solid ground. But then the bad guys have chased you there and you have no choice but to cross. It's just not safe anymore on your side.
I had to hit that point to stay alive and learn to actually live my life or else those bad guys were just going to keep convincing me that I could control my food and everything else I was compulsive about. That is why I've started this blog today.
Yes, I'm a wellness coach and consultant, but I'm also in recovery, early recovery. I am approaching 11 months and I know writing helps my journey. I also know a lot of people out there who feel very alone. They just keep in their isolation and we can't get through this unless we get out of that isolation. So, this is for all of us.
You may be a compulsive overeater who attends Overeaters Anonymous meetings, or someone that didn't work for and you are looking for something where you can be accepted no matter what kind of eating issues you have or size you may be. You also may have no idea you have an eating issue because you've been too busy dieting, exercising too much or having regular binge episodes. Everyone - is accepted here no matter what size, age, demographic or stage of recovery. I hope that our sharing together will provide experience, strength and hope to us all.
I want you to share your experience...and don't feel like you have to put anything other than your first name. Just know that your words are understood because we're all on a similar journey.
The 17 Year Funk
9 years ago
To come from a famioly where college and success is the only option, I have felt like I failed. Not to say I didn't get into college but to go to a college that wasn't there choice was one thing, the other was to put so much time and money into a sport with expectations of a scholarship and not get one. All of these expectations build up. For parents to tell you that you need to get out and make more friends is also not easy to deal with.
ReplyDeleteSo, then I came to consider joining a sorority, also bad idea if you are already having issues, especially at a school where looks mean a lot.
I believe I have gotten to that point where the "bad guys" are getting to me, but thanks to Mere I am going to be able to frix that. It is so important to help each other through these tough times, so that we all can accomplish what we want to. After years of feeling inadequate I hope that I can soon change that!
I love this, Mere! I already feel welcome and comforted knowing there is somewhere I can go that feels safe -- to read about and talk about and explore my issues around food and my body. And I am so glad it's your site! so proud of you. xo
ReplyDeletethat was me who just posted that. it wouldn't let me post as debbie.
ReplyDeletexo deb