Times of change can trigger these reactions...
A return to square one doesn't mean we're back to square one in our recovery. They do not mean we've failed recovery. They do not mean we are in for a long, painful session of feeling badly. They are just there.
If the old feelings come back, know for certain there is a way out that will work.
This is a reading from the Language of Letting Go, and it really speaks to where I am today. I feel that not good enough, I'll never get it right, hopeless feeling a bit today about something I'm working on. I've learned in my recovery and getting out of myself that relationships are what makes life great, not material things. I thank God for that realization. In starting my business and taking Financial Peace University with Dave Ramsey, I'm really learning how to make money manageable. It's just those baby steps where I get frustrated, and I get to the point where I feel like I'm not good enough. But really, I am moving forward and I don't have to let
those feelings take me over. I can practice acceptance and let them pass.
I know if I work this, my fears of financial insecurity will pass. Responsibility is hard but it is rewarding and those small step rewards are better than numbing the fear with food or something else. I can just write it out, cry it out, talk it out. God is giving me things as I can tackle them. Sometimes it just takes a few times for certain things to click but I can be teachable with a clear head now. That's a gift. Someone said to me today that I'm basically pivoting, and reversing patterns of 30 years. Of course this is going to be hard, and it just reminds me that I have to take it one day at a time.
