God's Time Not Mine

Ask God to help when you feel overwhelmed. Many of us have learned how to deprive and neglect ourselves. Many of us have learned to push ourselves hard, when the problem is that were already pushed too hard. Many of us are afraid the work won't get done if we rest when we're tired. The work will get done; it will be done better than work that emerges from tiredness of soul and spirit. 

This is another reading from the Language of Letting Go. I know that when I get overwhelmed I have to ask God for help. I spent too many years beating myself up for not working hard enough to be good. I wasn't skinny enough, smart enough or getting good enough times in marathons. I think part of that was because I thought I was supposed to be perfect like Him, but he loves me no matter what. I can take the pressure off myself. I don't have to seek his approval. I don't have to avoid him thinking that I don't deserve his love because of the way that I've treated my body. I don't have to give him the list of things that I want him to do. I can just work on accepting that everything will happen in His time, not mine.

There's a song, called "In God's Time" by Sonia Lee and the lyrics go like this:

I'm impatient, so it's been hard waiting on him to help me heal these scars.

But i know I can't do this by myself and I know that there's nobody else who knows better what's best for me.

Sometimes it's hard to trust something I can't see.

But he's shown me a million times before that when I'm ready, he will open up that door.

God's time, not mine. It's been hard for me to get this right.

God's time, not mine. I'm learning to let go and let him take control cause everything's gonna be just fine, in God's time.

He knows what I can't know, he hears what I can't hear, he sees what I can't see and he's looking out for me....

It's that time of year when the semester is coming to a close and schoolwork gets a little crazy. In order for the work to get done, I need to stay balanced and do the things that nourish me so that I can get my work done. I don't need to turn to excessive exercise or eat a bunch of crappy food to cope with that stress. I can do a little yoga, get some rest, eat a nutritious meal and nurture myself. Right now, I'm going to go for a short run over to campus to say hi to Him at the grotto.