The title of this blog was the basic message at church today. It falls right in line with the whole recovery theme of "Let go and let God." and "God's will, not mine." When we are in our will, trying to control everything and do it OUR way - we usually aren't happy. So God just waits for us until we're ready to turn the steering wheel over to him.
I know that for a long time, I tried to control life. I wanted everything to happen according to my time and so I fought like hell to make that happen. But it didn't, and I ended up turning to things that numbed me because I couldn't get what I wanted when I wanted it. It wasn't until I turned my will over to God when I got into recovery that I realized I'm not God. I'm not the orchestrator of my purpose. I implement his will for me. But I don't orchestrate how it's going to go. And the funny part is, that doesn't mean that I never resist God. Are you kidding? Of course I do...But I also practice praying for his will for me and the power to carry that out because ultimately, that's the only way I'm going to live the best life I can. So I practice it. Sometimes it takes going through some hell, practicing patience. Other times it's through meditation. I know as someone who feels like I got a second chance at life, there is a lot I want to do to fulfill it but I also know - I've got to have patience to do it.
So, after hearing the message again today - I'm practicing following God's will even when it's hard. I've got a lot of good things coming in my life, a lot of unknowns. But I know in my heart that He will take care of me. I've just got to let him. As Jason Miller said today (I probably am a little off), but "You can try to control your life, or you can try to live it but only God can give you life."
What a gift cause if everything always went according to my plan, it sure would be boring!!!!
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