Faith instead of horoscopes...

" Face the future but face it only with a brave and happy heart. Do not seek to see it. You are robbing Faith of her sublime sweetness if you do this. Just know that all is well and that Faith, not seeing, but believing, is the barque that will bear you to safety, over the stormy waters." - Russell

We are people who often fear the unknown. We love to worry about the future.

It's a favorite pastime of mine as well. I dove headfirst into that fear by reading multiple horoscopes religiously on the web. It was an unhealthy addiction to the drama of what I wanted to hear and what I didn't want to hear. There is one specifically (that I won't name for all of you horoscope junkies) that gets posted the first of the month and gives you the whole month. It's one that's been hard to let go of because I loved knowing what my month is going to look like.

But yesterday July 1st was different - my healthy voice asked me if it really helped me last time I read it. It said it's favorite line, "Do you really want to sign up for that pain?" And I said, "No. I don't want the extra drama." So grateful that I did. My need for them and attention to them has waned drastically in my recovery. But even when I take them less seriously, they still affect me. It's like the devil, my unhealthy voice trying to creep into my thoughts without me knowing it. If something happens I think, oh...that's what the horoscope said. REALLY?

We are addicted to the outcomes. We want to know what's going to happen and when. Our unhealthy voices get attached to "What if" and we worry about what will happen, or how our past will affect the future. Yet all of it takes away from loving ourselves and living in the moment. We don't need it. What we need is faith.

When we can recognize that we have outgrown a behavior, we can recognize how much we've grown. Today I am so grateful for my life and the people in it, and the possibilities to come. My unhealthy voice wants me to see all those possibilities as unknowns. It wants me to feel insecure because I don't know what's going to happen. But I must remember, that life is all about change. We strive for security, but it's not about that. It's about growth. If we can embrace the growth and change on the journey...and turn to our Healthy Voice or Higher Power, we can be at peace...